Dear Rahm

Where do I begin? This is one of those conversations where I don't want to miss a spot of saying what is on my mind.........
Of course there is the LGBT agenda being a little more difficult for me to speak my mind, but it isn't even my priority.
You have good and bad in you. You have had your own ways of disappointing me from the start, and nothing has changed. I am still disappointed to this day. Maggie's kills were never sharp. It was the men's kills that were shattering: Yes, it is ok for us to sexually discriminate against you for the sake of Maggie. You don't have much of a say. We will always see you as her inferior no matter how much rape she gets away with. My thoughts have remained the same against Maggie. Maggie's REAL ACTIONS to take control over me against my will, treat me as her servant against my will, gang rape me against my will WILL ALWAYS BE MORE CRIMINAL HATEFUL AND WRONG than my words ever were. I was so over-underestimated and overlooked and people were breathing down the back of my neck so ever-ready to go ballistic over anything I say. YOUR ACTIONS SAID WHAT YOU WERE A LONG TIME AGO. As long as you and other men who have made the same mistakes don't see themself as wrong, you can't convince me to believe in you. This was in the past, and I even see in the present your one-sidedness in favoring Maggie and her side of the story over me.
I am so sick of the gang rape and the way people want to torment me with their tyranny. I am so sick of the sadistic mysogynistic hateful will to live that people have in entertaining themselves by testing me to be subjected to them. I am so sick of the immaturity of it all. People have no right at all to disrespect my independent, and Libertarian will to live. There never has been an excuse to take control over my life; there never will be one.
One hint you give is that you want to say you and Denny are not the same and you want me to trust you. You still havn't given much feedback from the first time I yelled at you over Denny.
Denny is not the only person I will not be compared to. I have waited and waited a long time for people not to be so simple-minded and understand the need I have for better sophisticated judgement. When it is discovered, the wrong people go for that battle to say they are the superior judge. I hate the dead giveaway of the challenge it has to be sometimes, because I hate the vulnerable adult that I am. People have no understanding how different they are altogether. Not every one has the same agenda. Not everyone has the same motive. Not everyone has the same reason or same sense of reasoning or logic. Not everyone rigs. People who do rig still have different ways of rigging. Not everyone has the same kind of hate, attacks, or kills. I hate the vulnerable adult that I am.
Besides being threatened by tyrants and weak simple-minded judgement. My will to live is threatened. I know there is a difference in a personal view and political views. Personally I AM A STRAIGHT WOMAN WHO WANTS A STRAIGHT MAN. I HATE HOW BEING STRAIGHT IS THE NEW MINORITY.  As much as the LGBT has fought for itself, it has done very little to respect straight people. Besides the LGBT wanting to be equal; I think they are in denial of wanting to feel superior. I have already been killed by bisexual or lesbian/gay "supremacy". I never made it a war to begin with and there should never be a war over sexual preferences. I am a libertarian who knows my own personal views and doesn't care at the sexual choices people make. They can be gay, straight, or whatever, but don't they dare think it is ok to call the shots over my sex or judge me or control me for their sake. THIS HAS ALL BEEN ABOUT CONTROL AND I HAVE ALWAYS TRUSTED MYSELF THE MOST.

SO HOW IS IT YOU WANT TO CHEER FOR ME TO PROTECT MY LIFE BLOOD AFTER YOU HAVE ALREADY DISAPPOINTED ME AND SEE MY PERSONAL VIEWS OR POLITICAL VIEWS AREN'T MUCH OF A MATCH? WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO SAY RAHM?

Thoughts on Javier Bardem

Javier Bardem is a very good looking man. I know there have been a few men in my life that have been included in his arbitrage. While there is some truth and some mystery, he still leaves an overall impression on me. With my question with movies anymore, and how much truth is in them, his character could probably be compared to Jon Stewart or cannibal man. I think he is probably savage and probably an abusive and chauvenist man that goes beyond chauvenism into savagry and morbidity. I know I have never met him in real life and that I don't personally know him. It is the overall impression he brings. It isn't just James Bond that gives this impression..............

With Penelope, this is about some of the present arbitrage in my life, this isn't intended to make a pass at Javier. (Penelope, I know I most likely don't stand a chance against you, and you are dear to me in your own way for me to test you like that). If he did want me for real, it would be too awkward with the roles he has played. )
Right now, I'm thinking about Mr. Obvious Sherlock. You better know I represent myself and am not in the senate or being a SIM for ANYONE.  He isn't the only one included in Javier's arbitrage though. If other men want to be paranoid of the impression Mr. Bardem has on me, they can be..............
The last type of man I need in my life is another Jon Stewart or cannibal man.
Besides looking out for myself, I am looking out for my daughter. You can call me judgemental, but I wouldn't be anywhere close to trusting or believing in his arbitrage to be safe with Mitzi. I think he is probably a danger and a threat to Mitzi.
I also question if he is the man in "death at a funeral" that was another of my dad's boyfriends. (I seriously hope not.)
In some movies, it all seems the same story..................The same story is me being subjected to lists of different women. In an additional particular instance, I will not be Julia Roberts or any of her arbitrage's inferior. I know how some testing games go, and despite whatever games are being played, I know I exist and what I truly think and feel towards some people. Julia Roberts is not on my good side. It is too unavoidable to not say it.
I think Sherlock has his own list of women for me to be subjected to and killed for the sake of. I have several reasons why I won't be recognized as looking too stupid to give in or too stupid to be naive. Sherlock is loud enough already.
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