When something looks the way it looks

But it could be more gossip and falsifications. I'm feeling a little hot blooded and hot headed. I did see all of your signs today, but after all of the signs on twitter today; it is a pretty loud suggestion. What to do with passes you could be making to me..??.. It almost looks like you could be Sharon and me Ozzy. lol. little bit of comedy there. The way we talk and communicate through the media and how much of a relationship is made out of it without any real conversation. A lot of reality through signs...... so frustrating at times.... Back to the subject. I've been wanting to come up with some kind of said apology during the times I was being a cheater. Before I compare you, I'll just say my part. There were times when you ran me off, had your cheat, or did something to upset me where we were apart and kind of off and on. Nothing too much really happened with the eye Dr. He could be someone I could have a thing for, but I have made no further pursuit with him. Jack is the one you seem to be presently looking at. Jack is a man who comes out of nowhere just as you. "he got here first" but I would have to say there was never any real relationship. I could be a dime a dozen to the real woman singer in Dead Weather. (I'd have to look her name up). There was so much info going left and right at once I couldn't keep up with everyone or knew that I knew of some people or where they came from. So, I have gotten into his music a lot and could be apt to get into his music more. A certain depth of a personal fascist crush where I have some creation in it. hmph. When you are the threat you are; you have your own way of driving me into him when it is kill and be killed. Like you didn't have your number of emotional affairs and especially an earlier loud say "Gillian and I are closer now than ever before." But no one needs to know right now about you and I (Twister reference). lol. Oh David, you player, you player! There is a lot of intensity in the several different media messages and it makes the blood rush through me. You score some points with me in that the emotional affair matters to you. I'm a little struck over the fact that I mean more to you than just sex. You're not doing it all for the nookie. Yet, we are "divorcing" over the matter anyway. I'm sorry David. You hurt me too. You hurt me in your cheats and insults and it has greatly upset me how far all of it has gotten. What do you really do on your weekends and tour days David? You probably are going all Johnny Cash and sleeping with a lot of women. If you are with Gillian, you leave me in the dark with it and if you aren't going Cash on me, you could be taking it much further with Gillian and having more of a relationship there. You have signs your showing on me regardless and staying in my head regardless. ... In a random trail, it looks like Tom wants to be credible over the ebay but it looked so much like you were making it personal with me. Are you and Tom gay together? Is this one of the gay men you hook up with? Your bisexuality will always be so awkward with me. I would want to think you see yourself as more straight than anything, but when you showed a picture of your apt in NY, it almost looked like you prefer men over women with how gay of a rainbow sign it was. While it does upset me when you cheat with women, it still is upsetting that you would still be giving your sex to a man. It's awkward for me. So much different with women than with men. It seems men prefer bisexual women that much more than straight ones. I've never wanted to be cultured like that. ..... Tonight is going to be another restless night, but if I am finally popping a zit with you and you are making the choice to be with someone other than me, it would help me get over it more. You're keeping me played anyway while sounding official with someone. The someone could be just me that you're in an official relationship with, but I can't give myself that credit yet, and know you're still keeping me played anyway. Such a gamer and player you are David. .... I thought about talking about some of my every day personal life but this blog is already long enough and should probably keep holding my breath. Goodnight David, whatever time zone you are in.