geeez

Reminding people what I said in the beginning:
Even as I see myself as an ocean, I see the world too as an ocean. I can't remember everyone. I can't keep track of everyone's drama where you are delusional that any human is God by being: omni-everything. That means capable of being everywhere at once and being able to remember and do anything at once.
I do see some drama right now is being guided by religion.
It is always a tough issue to get into.
A reminder that I consider myself to be agnostic and believe in the Christian God.
There is drama going on with religion (especially any end time specialist will always have some sort of current drama that relates to holy wars, especially the holy land of Israel.)
This is where I reassert myself to say I am very ignorant of specifics of Israel: different religions, religious sects of religions, politics, and people.
I know, this should be a subject I should be very knowledgeable of. I'm not. Its not that I am an extremist in being ignorant and against it. I have my own personal drama. I have not yet taken interest or have pushed myself to learn more about Israel. I probably will one day, but it is not of highest concern in my life right now.

I am talking to the Moscow, that I met in person from NY. Things are changing. He looks like he is pursuing me now. I just don't get it. This is a time where me and him are not mutual. I don't believe his love is sincere even in his persistence. My guard is up. They did make him look very tacky. Its not really the portrayal of the media that guides my choice.
It is how things are rolling. His reaction to my last letter of calling him a womanizer is a persistance with no apology, no argument, no explanation. I think he feels if he has sex with me, he will feel he has domination and will win his argument that womanizing is superior to a woman's soul. A reminder for the karma gamers, I already have a balanced perspective at issue of attraction.
I am suspicious of other possible connections that make him untrustworthy as well.
God, I know I sound so judgemental, but I admit I can be a hawk sometimes too. I've lived and learned, I have every reason to be on my guard and hawkish.