Dear Jon

I am still keeping my eyes opened. There havn't been any other signs yet. I think I will watch Dr. Oz today instead of Anderson for his immediate demands of attention. I need to know though, is my life going to be more at risk if I choose to continue watching Anderson? (sometimes it is leisure too).
I really need you to know I am being serious too about mortality. Life can be depressing and miserable, but that doesn't mean that I want to die. I was already complaining about life and brought up the "Life is a highway song." Just because I sang it with Nick does not mean that I am giving Denny any credit or praise either. I am also pleading mercy to you for you to not subject me to him. He is such a sick old man and I need more relief to the pain of being nauseated.
I want you to also know, that I have payed some attention to Tracy, but I havn't payed attention on a normal basis or have been a stalker to her. Amongst so many other women, she is the one you are married to and I havn't forgotten.
I really hate how the victimization game goes, but you are the one who is coming after me. I'm also going to beg for more mercy with other things. I do believe that Joe still has a mind of his own, but also know the potentials of capitalism. If you did have the power and control, please don't damn me to Joe.
With the other women in your life, it really is hard to read you sometimes. I'm still getting provoked by Katie in the matrix or Kate could be just representing herself. Either way Jon, I do not have the patience to continuously be provoked; and amongst all of the provoking, being provoked with possessiveness. I've already told you how much it hurts me with the seagulls and so many different ways of being possessive. Denny is in this list too. Katie is one amongst many examples of possessive and bossy women that I just don't have the patience to put up with now or ever.
Jon, my words may not be in compliance with anything you would want to hear, but it is coming from my own mouth that I really am begging you for mercy. I think you know you torment me enough and I am writing and begging to give you satisfaction. If my begging isn't enough, what is it that you are expecting of me? I can't live with any more pain or torment. MERCY.